...to say that one of my lessons learned from pregnancy is that I never want to be really overweight? I know it sounds obvious, especially probably to most of you who read this. I mean, I'm worried enough about losing all the baby weight, and hopefully the ten extra pounds that I already had slowing me down pre-pregnancy. But I mean, seriously overweight. I. never. want. to. be. here. again.
There are times when I forget this huge bulge that is my abdomen, until Baby M gets in one of her whirly swirly kicky moods and my abdomen begins to sway and bulge every which way (which is often!). But, it also hits me when I drop a pen and realize that if I'm sitting down I can't just bend over and reach the ground to pick it up. Or, if I park in a tight parking spot, I have trouble getting out of my car. Or when I bumped into the door of the elevator because it hadn't yet opened wide enough to fit all of me. Or when rolling over in bed takes energy and a vocal "oomph" as opposed to just blithely turning.
I've spent a lot of time thinking about the fact that there are people who live like this every day. Although I've gained a healthy amount of weight, if I weren't pregnant the standard BMI index says that I'm officially obese based on my height and current weight. It saddens me to realize that there are people (including some close family members) who don't value their long-term health and short-term comfort enough to put the time and energy into being fit.
My own motivation has occasionally lagged in the past, and it sometimes scares me as I realize that life is changing very very soon and how will I fit it all in. But I know that remembering this experience of being plus-sized will spur me to somehow make the time and the choices to avoid living in a body this size ever again.
2 months ago
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That's funny. After breakfast today my cat Isis (who is all of nine pounds, and five of that being fur) was sitting on my lap. I said to Armando, "I can't imagine having a baby this size in my belly. How would I even move around with a belly like that?"
He of course laughed, but seriously. That would be cumbersome. OK, so it's an odd comparison, but I guess in some way I can see what you're saying.
Anyway, it's not like you're plus-sized because you've eaten so many Little Debbie treats over the last year that you have stock in the company. You are supposed to gain weight while you're pregnant. I am glad you and Baby M are healthy :)
That's one of the reasons I'm working extra hard this pregnancy to keep the weight gain reasonable. Shoulder checks while driving, dressing my son, putting on socks are all a huge chore. After last time I vowed never again. It really puts things into perspective. Great post.
Oh sweetie...I know you are struggling with this. I know you know you won't be this weight again!
You have too many friends and a great husband to help motivate you back to tri-shape after Baby M arrives.
I've strapped on a 10lb weight vest a CF a few times and while I know it is no simulation of pregnancy, but it is reminder enough to N.E.V.E.R. want to be obese.
You are a beautiful preggers mom to be. Embrace the comedy of this newfound body, your gorgeous skin and hair (i'm so jealous), and the fact SHE is almost here!
You have the fitness bug in you. When life slows down, you will be right back on course.
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